Monday, July 25, 2022

The Way Baseball Connects Us

A once-in-a-lifetime experience: Neil & I with David Ortiz on a trip to Cooperstown


My story doesn't start with a raffle ticket we bought in support of David Ortiz's Children's Charity, and organized with the assistance of The Red Sox Foundation, though that's what directly led to the amazing photo posted above. Actually, my story starts with my late father - who grew up playing stickball on the streets of Brooklyn during the depression. A man who became a huge Brooklyn Dodgers fan. Who told me stories of seeing Jackie Robinson play, both in AAA when my father was in Rochester after his WWII service, and also at Ebbets field with the Dodgers. 

The only poem my father knew by heart was Baseball's Sad Lexicon by Franklin Pierce Adams. And I can still hear him recite it in my memory.

These are the saddest of possible words:
"Tinker to Evers to Chance."
Trio of bear cubs, and fleeter than birds,
Tinker and Evers and Chance.
Ruthlessly pricking our gonfalon bubble,
Making a Giant hit into a double –
Words that are heavy with nothing but trouble:
"Tinker to Evers to Chance." 

I was born after the Dodgers broke his heart and grew up a Mets fan after he switched his allegiance. I was a kindergartner the year of the "Miracle Mets" and my earliest of baseball memories is sitting in the driveway with my Dad, listening to Mets games on the car radio. 

I still think a well called game is a thing of beauty. And the sounds of the game bring my father back to me like very little else does. 

My connection with baseball is very much tied to appreciating the game as a fan, rather than as someone who played it. Title IX wasn't law until long after my childhood and where I grew up, girls weren't encouraged to play sports. I went to the occasional game in my graduate school days in NYC and then when we moved to Boston in 1990, I was happy to trade one losing team to another and switched my allegiance to the Red Sox. 

My children grew up Red Sox fans the way I grew up a Mets fan. The only time we could watch TV during a meal was if a game was on. Car rides equaled games on the radio. My children learned that baseball could break your heart when Nomar Garcioparra was traded. 

2004 tied three generations of baseball fans together: My father, retired in Florida, had adopted my team and became a Red Sox fan, me, listening to tight games from the hallway because I was too nervous to watch, and my sons, falling asleep in front of the TV during the late games and demanding to know the score and play by play first thing in the morning. 

Somewhere along the way, my husband became a fan as well. Not just of the Red Sox, but like me, of the game itself. 

One more brief digression before I get back to 2022 and David Ortiz.

During the Summer of 2010, my eldest son and I stopped at Cooperstown while we were visiting colleges the summer before his senior year in High School. It was the first time at the Baseball HOF for both of us. At a local bookstore, we picked up a copy of Joe Posnanski's book about Buck O'Neil and the Negro Leagues and one of my fondest memories of that summer is my son reading me passages during our trip.

Fast forward to 2022. Our kids are grown and on their own. Baseball is still something that connects us. I'm still an avid fan of the Red Sox and especially love listening to games on the radio. (Have I mentioned that a well called game is a thing of beauty?)

And so my husband buys a raffle ticket. He buys it because we support good causes. We are big fans of David Ortiz and his charity raises money for children's medical care. All of our sweet spots. We have no expectations of winning anything.

And he gets an email that he's won. Not just any prize. The *Grand* prize: a private plane trip for 2 to Cooperstown, traveling with David Ortiz. 3 nights in a hotel. VIP seating at the Induction Ceremony. 

Where, not only did we get to cheer for the one and only Big Papi (who is a completely lovely, authentic, and welcoming person), but we also celebrated the inductions of  Gill Hodges - a player my father loved, and Buck O'Neil - the player my son and I bonded over more than a decade ago.  

This weekend was an experience I will cherish my whole lifetime. Perhaps I will be able to tell some future grandchild that I got to meet Big Papi and add another link in this chain.

The connections between generations are as solid as a perfect double play, as joyful as a blue-sky summer afternoon at the park, and as enduring as the hope of a walk-off home run.




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Saturday, June 25, 2022

No is a Complete Sentence

No is a Complete Sentence 

Patriarchy says: if you don't want to get pregnant, don't have sex.

Patriarchy says: sex is my right to have, not yours to refuse or control.

Patriarchy says: birth control interferes with my right to procreate.

Patriarchy says: if you have a child outside of my approval, you and the child deserve to suffer.

Patriarchy says: your body is my property.

Patriarchy says: your child is my property.

Patriarchy says: my pleasure matters, your suffering does not.

Patriarchy says: you do not matter.

Patriarchy says: you do not exist except as a reflection of my needs.

Patriarchy says: if you cannot serve my needs, you have no purpose.

My answer does not change even as you raise your fist. 

        -LJ Cohen 6/25/22




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Friday, May 27, 2022

Writing with Aphantasia

This is a representation of my mind's eye: Shadows, light, static


While the term "Aphantasia" is relatively new to the scientific scene, I've had it my whole life. My mind is absolutely unable to picture anything when I'm awake. (Interestingly enough, I believe I have visual dreams - I experience them that way during the dreaming, but can't capture the visual memories of those dreams upon waking.)

There are those who believe imagination is dependent on visualization. To those people, I say not so much. (See also: 8 novels, dozens of short stories, hundreds of poems I have written.)

I create from a place of emotion and kinesthetic sensation. I *feel* what my characters are feeling, both physically and emotionally. Which is likely why I write in deep point of view - either first person or more commonly third, and never in omniscient. 

So many of my fellow writers talk about writing down the movie playing in their head and that just sounds so strange to me! For the longest time (most of my life, actually), I thought this was a metaphor. When I discovered that some people (maybe most?) actually *do* see what they imagine, I was stunned. To me, that felt like walking around with hallucinations playing in the background. 

So, back to my writing. 

I'm at the climax of the multiverse novel I've been working on for the past few years. And on a good writing day, I can get about 500 words in - a small part of a scene - and no more. It's not that I don't know what happens next, but rather what's happening is so intense, I can't work for more than a short time without needing to step away.

When I say I inhabit the character, it's very much a physiologic thing. I'm betting if you wired me up to biofeedback and tested my cortisol levels, heart rate, blood pressure, etc,  you'd believe that I was under intense stress during those writing sessions. 

That's what writing the characters from the inside is like. 

That's what writing with aphantasia is like for me.





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Thursday, May 19, 2022

I hate that this poem is still relevant

I wrote the poem, Shloshim, seven years ago. It was in response to yet another senseless, white supremacist fueled, racist massacre. Frighteningly, I don't precisely remember *which* one it was that drove me to write this. 

And now there are still more mourners for lives obliterated by hate. 

 I wish I had something comforting to say. Perhaps violence has always been the background noise of our society. Which is a terrifying reality to confront. 

 

Shloshim
How long must I count shloshim? I buried
my father twenty-one days ago. In a week
I would have unpinned the torn, black ribbon
for one final time. But every day, the clock
begins anew. Fresh grief winds up
the old. Nine new names to stand for
and recite kaddish. Each one, someone's
beloved. The rituals of loss bring no rest
to the dead. The living bring casseroles, prayers,
and pie to the funeral table. I mean no disrespect--
not to the nine lost to hatred, not to their families,
joined in their death. I don't know what else
to do so I recite Hebrew words I barely read,
transliterated into helpful English. They bring me
a small comfort as I look around at the other
congregants, men and women gathered
here on an early Friday morning so I can publicly
mourn my father. A minyan. One mourner and nine
others. One life for each of the lost. Our little
chapel has no locked doors. Evil could sit here
invisible among us, too, leaving the stricken
survivors to start the count again. 
--LJ Cohen, June 20, 2015





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